Insight - Personal Practice

I tried to gain insight of those closest to me as I transition to a life more in line with my values.

As I did so, all I could hear were the voices of my past.  

I was stuck in my perspective of life.  My experiences

I was thinking of my past and future.  I started to spiral in frustration.

Then I asked for help.  I sought the objective perspective.  

I talked of my perspective of others and their expectations of me.  I spoke of my life and all the highs and lows.  I was brutal and honest about myself.  

I did my best to gain understand what others might be thinking or feeling.  I wanted to be sympathetic to the feelings and needs of others.

Then I was gently reminded that there is no way for me to ever know what is truly in the minds of others.  I have to rely upon the other to tell me, just as they have to rely upon me to tell them.

I sat and thought long and hard about any recent struggles I may have had in communication which led to frustration either by my self or others.

I took a long hard look at myself and came to the realization that I lash out and build walls when my independence is challenged.  

I expressed this to a loved one upon realization of a core value issue I have.  I did this to offer insight.

In response I found a core value in the loved one to be a need for partnership.

We had both known this to some extent of one another, but with the self realization of us both and the ability to provide insight of ourselves with the other we could move past a point of frustration as we recognized the point of contention in each of our core values.

I could not have moved past this and started to work on the real issue without first knowing myself.

I’m learning how to gain deeper insight of myself and using it to communicate with others.

I have Insight!