I was in search of guidance this past week and found it around every corner.
I have known for sometime, but had to acknowledge once again, that I can not control every aspect of my life.
I can not make others do or be as I wish.
I can not force outcomes.
I need to let life take its course.
At the same time, I need to recognize the intentions I set for myself.
These intentions of mine have focus and I know what I want with absolute certainty. This is all part of my practice
Now that the intentions are reality I have been faced with taking responsibility for what I asked for.
When I started to talk about my intentions with others and explain my inner most thoughts with those close to me, they knew I was struggling based on old behavior patterns.
I received a consistent response from each person; “do not let yourself get in the way”!
These individuals have intimate knowledge of me and of how I can overanalyze and create problems for myself. Basically psych myself out!
What a thing to practice! Refraining from self sabotage!
I am refraining!
I needed to hear the voices of those I trust tell me to refrain.
I asked for help and help came!
The help made all the difference in my practice of being the best I can be in this adventurous journey!
When in doubt of your intentions and you find yourself noticing the mind wander to old comfortable patterns, ask for help.
It will come!