I've spoken of non-attachment in the past, however, this past week I was reminded how important it is to practice non-attachment and to allow myself to be in the here and now.
I know attachment to "things" does me no good. But I still found myself attaching.
I actually became physically ill at the thought of letting go of something I had owned for the last thirteen years of my life.
This "thing" was such a part of my life! It had comforted me when I was ill or sad. It held many happy and unhappy memories!
When I realized it was time to let this "thing" go, I did my best to hold onto it.
I stressed about making space for this thing, even though there was no space to spare for it. I even found myself loosing sleep re-evaluating the layout of my home trying to find space.
Mind you, I didn't want to disrupt the other things. I like them as they are! It's my attachment that was driving me to accommodate a "thing" that has no purpose or use for me any longer.
Then I was challenged to let the "thing" go.
I found myself justifying having this "thing", even though I knew my justifications sounded silly.
I was even going to spend more money in order to hold onto this "thing" which served no purpose.
This attachment was strong!
Then I realized it, I was attaching. I was holding onto my memories so hard that I wasn't allowing myself space to create new memories, I wasn't allowing myself to be in the here and now.
I knew it was time to let this "thing" go.
I'm not gonna lie, I savored the last moments. My heart was heavy. I hugged this "thing" and shed a few tears before it left my life.
Then I let it go.
I watched this "thing" leave my life for good.
In it's place is a new "thing", which is needed.
All-in-all, I'm super excited about recognizing my attachment and equally excited to be a step closer in my practice of non-attachment.
After all it was just a "thing".
