Be Here! - Personal Practice

It’s not easy to be in the here and now when you’ve taken a step back to regain self awareness.

All the expectations others have of you are still there.

I hadn’t been saying no, or saying what I was thinking, all in the attempt to gain acceptance and approval.  I hadn’t been honest with myself or others.

It felt so good to realize what I want out of life and accept who I am, but with that acceptance came the delivery to those in my life that I needed to be more true to myself.

I decided to start saying no and attempted to gently request support from those closest to me.  I asked that they understand the changes I needed to make to ensure I live life to its fullest.  I just knew this would help me to be the best I could be and make me better for those around me.

This was not received well.

I received resistance and requests to go back to my old ways.  I was shocked and angry that these requests were being made of me.  

All I could see was how selfish those in my life were, that they were only thinking of their needs and would continue to abuse me if I let them.  Walls started to come up and I reflected upon past experiences, similar situations.  

I compared the people in my life to people from my past.  I was feeling resentful and angry.

I recognized that I was feeling this way.  I didn’t know what to do.

Then I remembered.  It was simple.  I just had to Be Here!

I decided I needed to be here and let each moment be.  I had to recognize my emotions and do the best I could to keep them in check.  I decided to not force my perspective on others.  All I could do was ask for their support.  

In making these changes I recognized that I may have to give a little.  I may need to offer some of my old ways to make the transition smoother.  I knew this would be painful for me, but I would clearly state to those in my life that I am doing something I do not wish to do at the moment, but I am doing it for their sake as an offering in the transition.

Sometimes a person does things they do not want to in order to make life better for the ones they care about.  I decided I could do this in small doses as I transition.

I decided to do these acts with awareness and ensure others had that awareness too.

I decided to transition in each moment.

I Am Here!

Be Here! Yoga Lesson

It’s easier said than done to be here in this moment, now.

But why not practice it?

Life is full of past experiences and future expectations.  

Past experience is good as it gives us perspective on the things we like and do not like, or want and do not want for our lives.

It’s all relevant.

The challenge is taking past experience and future wants and applying them to the here and now.

Allowing the moment to be it’s own and letting the rest go.

Be Here!