I am not as "easy going" as I like to think. I have many attachments!
A few examples are I like to use my own personal bathroom, I want my vehicle to run properly at all times, and I like the routine of writing "The Yoga Lessons" each week.
Well, I can tell you I've had quite the week regarding attachment.
I'm going on vacation and I'll be camping. Which requires I be easy going regarding the use of public bathrooms, something I'm not good at.
Luckily this week I had a friend talk about an experience with dysentery. My friend was so enthusiastic about just getting out there and trying something new even though there was discomfort associated to the experience. I caught the enthusiasm! I thought to myself "I can do this! I can camp and use a public bathroom! Heck! Maybe even a port-a-potty!" Well, that last comment may be a bit much.
This week is my Birthday Week! Now, this is a big deal to me and always has been. I'm that person that likes to extend my Birthday the whole MONTH, if I can get away with it.
I spoke to my significant other about my expectations and he politely reminded that "I can't expect others to be mind readers" and all I need to do is ask for what I want and need. We had experienced a lot of heart ache because I attached to past experiences and expectations. I'm working to let go of the attachment and I've found some new experiences that are wonderful! I just needed to stop looking at the past. Ah, more practice for me!
Now the weird one! I have a real affection for my vehicle. For some reason it represents independence to me and no other vehicle will do! I have to have this vehicle!
Of all things, on my birthday my car stalled and simply stopped working. I was really disappointed that my birthday plans changed in the middle of the day and I needed to address the issue with my vehicle. I really felt like it let me down. How could my vehicle do this to me?!? Then, I was reminded that it's not a big deal, it's only a vehicle. I can let go of this "attachment". Hmm...
Ugh! Why can't I just be finished with all these lessons? Why can't I be done practicing? Why am I just not automatically enlightened?
Well. I guess because I haven't let go of my attachments. I like my comforts and comfort zones. And there is nothing wrong with this.
Maybe I'll get there, I'll reach enlightenment, maybe I won't. But I wouldn't give up the practice of getting to know myself better for anything!
What a Great Journey with wonderful friends and family to help me along the way to gain new perspectives and show me when I'm attached.
Non-Attachment. Easier said than done!
