I've spend a lot of time letting my "logic" talk me out the things I want for my life.
I've paralyzed myself by over thinking and analyzing my opportunities.
I've talked in circles trying to find logic for many of my opportunities. I've talked those circles with myself and even made my friends listen to me.
In some cases, I've found I gravitate toward opportunities that will give me an easier path and provide me with things of comfort. Those opportunities usually fit into a society norm and are easy decisions. Those opportunities keep me at a status quo or maybe even give me a little more money to play with.
I've been know to also take the opportunities that make the least amount of sense or have no "logic" according to most people. These opportunities are usually extremely uncomfortable. I've found that I work harder, have less free time, and sometimes less money. I tend to push myself harder in these choices.
Why do I put myself through this?
Because I feel it! I know it's a growth opportunity and I'm going to be a better person for it.
Ironically, every time I've ever taken the more difficult route and the one that speaks to my heart, it's an opportunity that has provided me with more than I hoped for.
So, when I find myself thinking things should be easier for me at this point in my life, I wonder if I'm actually settling into a comfort zone and letting opportunity pass me by. I wonder if I'm missing a growth opportunity for the sake of money or something "I Know" how to do.
I think the answer when I have those thoughts is yes.
The great thing is, I always have a choice.
It's up to me to be okay with discomfort for the sake of living my life to it's fullest.
Truly living life in my opinion is not settling or doing the things I know work in order to obtain comfort. I think living is doing the things I really want for myself, taking opportunity even if it's at the cost of my comfort.
It's trusting myself and following my vision.
So, as usual, I'm continuing my practice of life. I'm committing to being honest with myself about how I feel about my opportunities and choosing the ones that make me feel best about my journey.
My heart always knows the best path, even if my mind doesn't always agree.